A puddle of tears..

There is a point in time where your cries are inward and not outward. You don't cry for them to see because you can't... you would if you could. Their responses to your constant failures seem to lead to impatience but you don't know. Your heart has fallen to the floor but doesn't break because of the hardness you have felt. Its heart wrenching once you think of it.


I don't know how to react so I stay silent to see what unfolds after this. All of a sudden a ray of light permeates my dark misery. My mother comes and comforts me through this and promises me treats. I feel a bit stronger to make a wise decision based on principle and not emotion. It seems a bit clearer to me now and I am wrong to some extent here.


Its a good thing that I was silent and waited for the truth and not for some cough drop answer. I would have been in a place where things would not have worked out for me very well. I now know how to act in these types of pitfalls... just wait for the picture to show up. I should focus on where I should improve rather than who's at fault. Wisdom is always the best way to react whether you know or not.


I would like you to live wise to reap wisdom,


T. C. Reid

Quiet when the storm is raging...

I have only lived a really short life so far and things are starting to make sense now. I don't always know what to think when disasters happen or when a plan of mine is foiled. There is one thing that is constant and I can always trust in... Jesus the Savior! He always provides in the time of need and gives a better outlook on your situation. He is always helping me every step of the way.


He inspires me to dream and gives me hope every step I take (tomorrow isn't promised to you). My life would not be the same without Him and I don't think that I would be alive today if He wasn't here. I believe that some of you understand the hope I have and may have it also. I want you to know that giving up gets you no where. Keep the faith and fight the good fight, it will all work out in the end.


I give You (Jesus) a mighty good shout for a job well done and task well taken. You share your secrets with me and I pray that I handle them better. You are still here even through the chaos I witness in my everyday life. Lord, You have given me a better mindset in all of this and I thank You! My heart is glad that you have walked me through this and shared your hope with me.


Hallelujah (Praise the Lord) to my Savior,


T. C. Reid

My Heart has skipped a beat..

My true love has given me a coldness of hands. The thoughts of herself have overtaken her and have caused me to worry. I can't heal a wound when a person keeps agitating it. It almost seems that I have no reason to say anything else. My heart has been broken because of the common wedge between us.


It has given me much to ponder on. My mind is like an advanced research team who are seeking an answer to a problem. It has shut down and I can no longer stand the tireless days and nights of encouragement from me to her going unanswered. I need the strength if this is going to work because I don't know right now. I need divine intervention in this matter so I don't overexert myself and all together quit.


My heart is broken and I have never been this confused in my life. I wish someone would help me understand whats going on. I need something to at least stay afloat in this torrent of confusion and pain. I need some assistance right now. I think my heart just skipped a beat!


Half of the greatness I once was,


T. C. Reid